Where has time gone!?!

The good thing about the internet is that it never goes away. It's been here this whole time just waiting for me to have time to come back; and look; here I am!!! Has it really been this long!?! Unfortunatly I'm at work and my lunch hour is near up so it'll have to be longer before I post anything good. I have honest hope to try to get back to this soon because even tho I was too shy to tell many people I keept a blog it was still kind of fun for me!!!

Quick update tho, Since my last entry I have discovered some new craft I enjoy!! quilting, quilling oh and my husband built me a pottery studio in our basement!! AND best of all my children are older and so much more fun to play craft time with!!! I've also done a couple workshops our towns highschool and grade school!! So there's lots to talk about!!

hope to be back soon
:)

please ignor my type o's no time to fix!!!

Has any one seen my mind, I seemed to have lost it.

The other day I put the baby's dinner in the cupboard to warm it up (ya you read that right). Of course I then had to laugh at my self and said out loud to no one "I need sleep cause I’m losing my mind"

Today I found the craft cupboard open and asked who left it that way. My 5 year old laughed an amused little chuckle and said "you did mom, don't you remember you're losing your mind?" then as he walked away I heard him mumble under his breath "poor mummy is so tired she can’t even remember she’s losing her mind”

Gosh I can’t believe it!

The baby got her first tooth yesterday!!! This is such a weird feeling me! As a mom I have always been eager and excited to watch the kids grow up so I can see what’s next, what will be the next fun milestone we’ll get to witness!!! But, with this little one it’s so different I just want it to all stop and I want every stage to last longer that it should! I want to savor it all, every moment of it . . . I’m not sad just . . . well maybe sad LOL though not sad for her, I’m happy for her! It’s fun growing up (for her) but for me I can’t help but think with a heavy heart “this is our last first tooth” With this first tooth I feel like she’s officially no longer a new born . . . even though she’s not yet 6 months old she’s now a "baby". My sweet lil baby who won’t stop growing up in spite of what here mama's heart wants.

some days I feel like super mom and others . . . .

Two of my kids had doctor appointments this afternoon so I pack the three monkeys up and away we went. I felt so prepared for what ever mood they were in, I had a good rest before we left, I packed games and markers and paper and snacks. . . I really felt ready. Unfortunately even my preparedness was no match for an over 2 hour wait. Why do doctors always over book and make moms like me wait. I hate situations like this! Out in public, people listening (judging me) the kids know I won't use my angry voice in public so of course they take full advantage of the situation. I tried to compensate with "the look" but it does no good with out “the voice”! They know they've got me and they are not afraid to go wild; and this afternoon that is exactly what they did!!!

When they brought us into the exam room my two year old and four year old lost every bit of discipline and manners they've ever been taught. We waited in there for ten-ish or more minutes and in that short time my son (age 4) stole a pap smear swab and used it as a sward against his little sister, my daughter (age 2) broke the doctors computer. They both rummaged through all the drawers asking what everything was (how do explain those pap forceps to children??) stealing band-aids and gloves and tape measures. They stamped the examining table, the chairs, walls themselves and each other with the doctors signature stamps . . . the baby (3 months) pooped all over herself (and me). When i wasn't trying to clean up pooh I was feeding her. So all I could do about the wild monkeys was try to remain calm, remind them of how we behave, ask them to listen, and tell them over and over in the most calm voice to stop what they were doing. I was at their mercy! In the calmest voice I could muster and the angriest "I mean business" look I could produce. I near begged them to behave and neither were accommodating their dear mama.

When the doctor arrived she wasn’t in a good mood, utterly un-amused by my children’s antics. Her cold, impatient and unforgiving manner made me feel worse.

By the time we got back to the car I was so exhausted and frustrated, the monkey’s of course got a stern talking too about respecting other peoples belongings and what is appropriate behavior at the doctors office, then quietly I had myself a good cry. Now that I have had a time to calm down and reflect, I can’t help but laugh my butt offf!! MY SON STOLE A PAPSMEAR SWAB AND IS USING IT AS A SWARD!!!!!

OK, I’m ready

34.5 weeks pregnant and I know my baby needs to cook longer but I’m ready (and so are my children) for me to be back to normal. This weekend my son asked me when I was going to start playing with them like I used to. (Which means chase them and crawl around with them on the floor in and our of tent tunnels). They miss the real mommy and honestly so do I. My days with them are no longer as fun as they used to be, now it’s all about how can we have fun with out making a mess that I will later have to clean. . . I have little patience and am very disappointed with myself for all of this. . . . I just keep thinking to my self "only a few weeks left" I’ve tried explaining to my 4 year old and while he said he understood I’m not sure if he does . . . :(

Oh my, am I exhausted!!

The kids arrived home on Tuesday of this week. I drove to Montréal and it was happy reunion (other than hubby being detained for possible child abduction, apparently I was supposed to have sent him off with a permissionary note to travel with my. . . errr. . . OUR children and they stopped in on their way back into Canada). It’s been a busy week, I tired to get us all right back in to the normal week days of babysitter and school while I went to work and today we just played, lounged and rested and this is what has exhausted me so much HAHA MY CHILDREN AND HUSBAND!!! It makes me laugh that while hubby and the kids were gone on their vacation I was able to paint my bedroom, I shampooed the carpets and furniture, I steam cleaned the non carpeted floors, I deep cleaned both bathrooms and scrubbed the tiles in the showers, I cleaned out all the closets, shoveled at least 40 cm’s of snow (a little at a time each day). I washed the walls and reorganized all the kitchen cupboards. I washed all of my daughter’s infant clothing and sorted out the new baby’s dresser. I even went as far as packing the hospital! I took my time and it was all done in just a few days that left me with two days of nothing but rest but rather I chose to sew some new blankets for the baby . . . but I exhausted TODAY!!!!! Why is being with my little ones is so much draining than cleaning?? I just don’t get it!

Missing My Lovies

So, hubby and the kids left a couple days ago for their vacation and a visit with my MIL in Florida. I thought it might be a nice little mini break for me and that I could have a nice rest but it has been the hardest thing. I knew I would miss them but I never anticipated just how much I’d miss them. They’re all I can think about. They return next week thank goodness (only 5 more sleeps lol). Apparently they’re having a great time doing lots of things, I say “apparently” because I have yet to receive any photo’s of my little darlings doing any of these fun things, husband really are no good at keeping moms informed.

I just came in from shovel the 30cm's of snow we got today, the neighbor was by earlier and blew the drive way so there wasn't very much but still my poor pregnant body aches LOL